I stand for integrity. I stand for judging and learning from experience. I believe not what people tell me but what is developed undistorted before my eyes. I see beauty in the truth and deception in all that is false. I see evil in the images which are seared deep into my memory yet treasure them because they are my own. There are seldom things in life we can truly name ours. I invite you into the one thing which is only mine; my mind. You can tell me if I was true to myself.
1- I am extremely excited for Breaking Dawn this Friday…i.cant.wait.any.longer. (I don’t even really like twilight and the fact that Fridays are normally my Vampire Diaries day is making me feel guilty with a capital G)
Don’t get me started on the Vampire Diaries mid season break..grrr
2- I am DISTRAUGHT Westlife are splitting up…’Flying without wings’ is my only comforter through these tricky times. This means I need a new boyband-guilty-pleasure and Take That just don’t do it for me like they do.
3- I am sat in bed with a mug of tea (I do not drink tea; coffee lover til the end) excited for Eastenders to end so I can get on with my Nicholas Sparks soppy romance (TRAGIC) and an early night. zzzzz… 17 going on 60?
Seeing my fave band a few nights ago was a pure delight! After some cheap, yummy food and a couple of dodgey cocktail pitchers (it was a pleasure, as always, Wetherspoons) it was time to see Noah. God they were so amazing and definitely didn’t disappoint. Oh and gorgeous…admittedly I find most dark-haired, stylish and talented men sexy but Charlie Fink is just sensational! I find their lyrics so true and relateable that i was close to tears once or twice and so didn’t want it to end. I really need to see them again <3
So here goes the next 9 months of being the only 17 year old at all my friends’ 18th birthday parties. Friday night saw the first turn to adulthood with plenty of drinks, dancing, cupcakes, dresses & laughs. I only wish it was as glamorous as it sounds…at midnight we found ourselves freezing on a bench overlooking the beach eating overpriced chicken & greasy chips (standard procedure in Newquay) & I woke in the morning to a camera full of semi-naked pictures, (I am proud to conform I remained appropriately attired for the entire evening) images of inflated condoms & ‘slut shots.’ Once again I made the next morning promise; ’I am NEVER drinking cider again’ but I am already keen for the next 18th shinanigan because slight loss of dignity asside it was bladdy hilarious!
Ive had so many wonderful times the past few months(and a few shitty ones) but I’m strangely relieved this summer is over so my life can go back to serving a purpose with some sort of structure. Despite the prospect of the whole college charade being quite simply painful, I know there is allot to look forward too and college sometimes has its perks. Bring it.
Last Wednesday I went on a pretty wonderful date. So be it with a close girl-friend (I don’t tend to swing that way) but it included dinner, the cinema and chocolate which classifies as a date in my books! Ellis even got me the cutest little rabbit and stag earings as a present, at one point I blurted out ‘why can’t you just be a guy?’ It was over pizza, pasta and raspberry lemonade that we traded our dodgy date stories…guys are weird…enough said!
This wednesday 2for1 pizza and cinema lark is permanently marked in my diary as a weekly affair!
After months of searching, further weeks of denial, further weeks of depression and perhaps 2 days of acceptance. I had finally come to terms with the fact that my RayBan aviators (the best thing since sliced bread) had permanently left my life. I am now overwhelmed with happiness (and surprise) after my babe of a mother put her hand down the side of the sofa and bought out the little buggers. I am never taking them off.
I was so so soooo excited to of found a lush pair of Fred Perry shoes which would fit my clown feet on Ebay (I’ve been looking for a nice, reasonably priced pair forever.) After a week of ‘watching’ them, my heartbeat somewhat quickened as I entered my bid.